I have two D18 and one 6918 crack doujin from Peeco?'s reprint collection,also one doujinshi about mukuro,and one D18 doujinshi :D

today,I watched Tenipuri OVA ep.15...and...I just saw the op....okay....well....at that time...I...just....Fall in Love with shiraishi!!!!don't know what....don't know why......don't know how....I just falled in Love with him....okay,at first time I saw him,well,I thought,"cool guy"...but,don't like him so much...and,I falled in Love with him,after saw him at shitenhouji arc opening....









he is so cool here....nyuuuu....>.<.....and,sometimes,I think he looks like Kajimoto X0....OMG.....I really love him.....
I betray fuji!!!!*smacked*

and then,2nd topic....today...I chat with a guys named AiGin-kun at YM(maybe he found my YM from Friendster)and then,I saw his FS.....I saw a BoysLove group...and,He like Kyou Kara Maou and Loveless!!!!!and he tell me,
"Yeah,I Like BL,is weird,yeah??"
and I think,"Of course,its weird..."But.,I'm afraid I'll hurt him,so,..I just tell this to him,
"mmm....not really,My friends who a guy too cosplayed Loveless and he gave BL fanservice when he cosplayed Death note(I mean L X Light fanservice^^)"
I feel sorry to him because I'm lied like that -.-...
but,at the same time,I feel shocked too.....all my friends who a guy,always mad at me or feel sick if I posted BL pict^^


btw,for all Moslem around LJ^^....

selamat menunaikkan ibadah puasa,Minal Aidin walfaidzin nee ^^

and puasa(I don't know what's that in english)start tomorrow,and I can't read/watch BL/Yaoi/Shounen-ai until night -.-
sa,Ja,neeeee////////

SaiRui:Our story(part 4 & 5)

Rating: PG-13 for kissing?!

Disclaimer:All people and things who name wrote in this fic,not Mine.

Part 4:Promise

Point of view:Saitou Takumi

“I know,it’d be like this,if he see this,if he watch this,but,it can’t be helped.I don’t want him to stop believe me,I don’t want him to stop trust me,I don’t want him see see me like I was betrayed him,or whatever.But,If I didn’t gave the dvd(1) to Him,I wonder,It’ll be better,or   no,like this?”

The dvd player is switch off………

And,he is just quite….don’t give any comment,or protest.

“Rui?”I take my hand in his hair.

Just silence….he is don’t answer my question

“are you angry  with me?”

“……………………..”

Unexpectedly,Rui pushed himself and hug me,buried hisn face in my shirt

“Takumi-san………….Takumi……….”

“I feel there’s wetness in my shirt….is he…crying?”

“Takumi………..”

I touch Rui face,and look his face….”Are you…crying?”

Yeah,he is crying…”am I…hurt you?”

“please………….”

“Yeah?”Takumi cupped Rui’s face…

“Please……..promise me….”

“Promise you?what?”

“Please……..promise me…..never….never kiss other guy than me,never touch other guy than me in real life………”

I’m not answer him,just silence…..

Rui’s shoulder is shaking,and he try to hold his tears

“please……..Takumi……..I’ll do everything for you…I’ll give all I have…so….please…..never…never leave me alone….never betray me……”

Takumi hug Rui’s Tightly,”Baka……….Rui……….you stupid………was I said it to you?I saids,I won’t,and never abandon you,leave you,betray you……..”

“But…seen this…is make me scared……….I’m afraid…Takumi-san…..I’m afraid you’ll be really leave me……..”

“Of course,no………that was just acting,you know…..”

“really?”

“Yeah.”Takumi nodded.

“You promise?”Rui lay a finger to Takumi

“Yeah,I promise”Takumi smile

Rui start to stop crying………

It make me hurt to see his crying like this

It make me feel painful to see he is sad like this

I don’t want to see him in tears again…

If I do….I’ll never forgive myself……

I hug rui….like don’t want let him to go from me……..

“Takumi-san….you hug me so tightly…it’s hurt………I can’t breath”

I let him off,”Oh…sorry….Rui…really sorry…”

“It’s allright…..”Rui seems not angry…but…he is not show his smile like usual….is he still sad??

“Rui………..”

“Yeah?”

“The producer of Boys Love offering me to play in secuel to Boys Love…”

“So??”Rui not show any expression

“But…I refused it…”

Rui look surprised,”Eh?Why?”

“Why…because……….”

“???”

“I……….”I stopped for a while…and….taking a kiss in Rui’s lips.

Rui’s blushing

“I love you,Rui….I don’t want to see you hurts because of me again….I know…you are really sad as you watched Boys Love and Sukitomo,Right?”

“…….T…Taku….”

“I know,even you never told me…..I knew from your expression…”

“Takumi………….”

“I’m sorry,Rui…………..It’s my fault….”

“Takumi….don’t apologize like that…..It’s my fault too…for being weak….for being a crybaby…..for being….”

“It’s my fault!!”I saids,making Rui surprise…..

He is cry again…..why?because of me?again….enough…it’s enough….too much…it’s too much for me…to make him sad,sad,and sad again

Unexpextedly,Rui come close and placing a kiss in my lips…

Breaking the kiss,I told RuiRui

“Rui…..I really don’t understand this….are you sad?or happy?”

“I don’t know…………..”Rui buried his face in my shirts,again

“so?”

“I just know about this….I love you…Takumi-san….”

I smile,and kiss ruito’s forehead..”Yeah,Rui,I know about that,I’m sorry,I won’t,and never betray you,Rui,I love you too.”

(1)dvd…I mean…Itsu-Kimi navigate dvd,that dvd is have Taku-Kawai kissing scene,Right?^^

Part.5:Tell me all

Point of view:Aoyagi Ruito

I call Takumi-san in the morning,he saids he don’t have any bussines or work today,so,I want to go to his apartment,and I call him

“Moshi moshi,Takumi-san?”

“Yeah…whats wrong RuiRui?”

“eh….eto……can I go to your place?I want to meet you……”Rui blushing

“………………..”Takumi-san don’t answer,just silence…

“takumi-san?whats wrong?”

“eh…..nope…..yeah….you can go to my place…”

“Really?”

“But,Rui,don’t you want to go out?maybe to theme park or tokyo tower?”

“………Do you mean Date?”I try to joke on Takumi-san ^ ^

“Yeah,date…..”But he answer it seriously….is he has not cute side??I wonder…

“No….”I answer…”Theme park or Tokyo Tower is too crowded and too many people there….I want a private place…where I can talk privately with Takumi-san….”

Takumi sigh,”Yeah,I understand,just come here.”

“Okay!!!”I’m turn off the phone and hurry to go to Takumi-san’s place…even I think….there’s something…..Takumi-san didn’t look like as usual……from his voice….Maybe…it was just my feeling

But,after I arrive at Takumi-san house….he look busy on phone…talking with someone….and look like has a big problem

After he turn off the call,I start to talk with him,”Is something wrong,Takumi-san?”

“No…..nothing….”Takumi-san smile…but…I think….he forced himself to smile…

“Really?”

“Yeah….more important Rui,just you and myself here….so….call….me….”

“Mmmm…..yeah……Taku…mi…”

“Good boy….”Takumi smile and take his hand in my hair…I think he is play on me,or what??I think his attitude is doesn’t like as usual….called me ‘good boy’ like that…..but I can’t ask him…..don’t know why…..but…if he really has a problem…I want him to tell ma all about him….his problem…his weakness….but….am I still not enough for him to trust me?

After a hour,me and Takumi were eat at Takumi’s dinner room,but,once again Takumi’s cellphone is ringing…and it make me really want to know what’s wrong with Takumi.Takumi answer the phone

“Yeah,yes,I’m understand,yeah….I’ll go now….”a short conversation,and Takumi turn off the phone.

“RuiRui….sorry….for a while…..”

“Is something wrong?”I cupped Takumi’s face.

“It’s allright…don’t worry…..stay here,okay?I’ll come back soon as I can…”Takumi smile,and kiss my forehead…..

I hug Takumi,”Yeah……be careful please….”

Takumi laugh…”What are you saids,Rui?It’s not Like I’m going to war or what…..yeah….I know….thanks….stay here,okay?”

“Yeah….”and Takumi is going out from the flat.

It’s eleven pm now…..and Takumi still not come back…..I’m waiting for him alone…watching TV….it’s weird…..I act like one wife who waiting for her husband come back….really…weird…I think….But…as I’m Takumi-san Lover…..maybe it’s not weird….but it’s weird……Thanks Tomorrow is Sunday,and I won’t go to school,so,I can sleep over tonight.

The bell is ringing,It might be Takumi.I open the door

“Takumi!!!welcome back!”

And right,In front of the door….It’s Takumi…..”Yeah…..I’m home,Ruito….”

I’m thinking,”he saids,I’m home??it look like this is our home….even it is his home…”

“are you tired?”I talk to Takumi when he took off his shoes….I wonder….was the problem resolved?or didn’t??But I can’t ask him…..

“Yeah….I want to go sleep…..but….”

“Yeah?”

“mmmm……nothing….”

At least,I can’t pull myself again….I’m really curious what’s wrong with him,what’s the problem….and,after all,I ask him.

“was something wrong,Takumi??”

“…………..”Takumi look surprised,doesn’t answer my question

“did you has some problem???”

Just silence…..he doesn’t answer me….

“I know….you still can’t trust me fully…..but…I hope….you may tell me all about you…is something wrong…or if you have some problem….I want you to tell about that all to me….please…..”I pulled Takumi’s shirt

“I’m not a child Takumi…I’m not a kid……I’m not a boy….I’m your lover…..I want you to tell me all about you….I want you to trust me….I hope you can believe me…..becauseyou’re your lover…..can’t I?”

Takumi wrapped his arm in my waist,and start to talk…

“I’m sorry….Ruito….but…not now…..It’s not like I’m not trust you….but….not now…..sorry…..”

I buried my face in Takumi’s shirt

“Sorry….Rui….but….I will go to german…..next week….”

I pull my self from his….”what…do you mean???german???for what time….???”I’m really surprised…can’t trust what I heard…

“Next week…..just for one week…..let me go,and forget about my problem….give me a rest….just one week…..and I’ll come back….and after that….I’ll tell about all of my problem to you….”

I can’t answer him….can’t protest…..just nodded

~to  be continued~

Nyaaa…..once again,sorry for the bad english(_  _)….and for made a weird story XD….I’m already think about the ending…but….still not know about the precuel before ending….and then,next week is Mid test,and maybe I can't online for 1 week....maybe it’ll waste many time for me to finish it….-.-

 Sairui part.3:Everything

Ruito really want to go to Takumi’s apartment,so,Takumi invite Ruito to go at Sunday.

“Wow,Takumi-san!Your apartment is really big!cool!”

“It’s just a medium size room”Takumi smile.

“But,you’re live here just yourself,so,it’s big…..”

“Hai……..Hai……..”Takumi’s smile again.

“what about your room?”

“Eh?”

“I want to see,your room…..”

“Okay,okay…..”

Takumi open his room door,and Ruito fastly get in

“Wow…..”

“?”

“Your room is so………………”

“What?”

“So……simple?”Ruito laugh.

“Ha?”

“Yeah…..ah……………..that’s………….Aiba-san,right?”Ruito’s pointing at the photo frame on desk.

“Yeah,at Sukitomo premiere.”

“Hmmm……………”Ruito take a look around the room

“What’s wrong?”Takumi touched ruito’s hair softly.

“No…….nothing…..”

“Ah!I forgot it!What do you want to drink?”

“It’s up to you,Takumi-san…..”

“Okay………tea?”

“Sounds good.”Ruito’s smile.

After takumi getout from room….ruito’s saids to himself

“So…..there’s no my photo,huh?”Ruito’s sighed.

A few minutes later,Takumi come back to room.

“here….”

“yeah,thank you…..”

After Rui finished his drink….Takumi and Ruito talk a lot…..about tenimyu,works,dorama,and the others.

Ruito sitting on takumi’s bed,”So,you really like travel,Takumi-san……”

“No like………….but,Love………..”

“Why?”Ruito thinking,but,doesn’t ask to Takumi.

“So……….is travel……the most important thing to you?”

“No………….but…………..”Takumi come close to ruito.and surprisingly,he grabbed Ruito shoulder,pushing Ruito away to the bed,and now,Ruito’s laying on the bed and trapped beetwen Takumi and Bed.

“T…..Taku………….”Before Rui finish his talk……Takumi kiss his lips,fastly……and start moving on to Ruito’s neck….

Rui feel he start to blushing and his body warm all over,”T….”and can’t speak……like his mouth is locked by Takumi.

Takumi kiss Ruito’s lips once again,and start to unbuttoning Rui’s shirt…..

Breaking the kiss,Rui Try to speak….but………before he can start speak…..Takumi was unbuttoned all of Rui’s button…..and start to kissing Rui’s chest………..

“T………….takumi-san……….wait………….I’m………”

Takumi offering his fingers to Rui’s lips……..and start to unzipping Rui’s pants……..

“Ta………..Taku……………”And Takumi start to kissing Rui’s neck againt….

“T………….Takumi………….stop……………please!!!!!!!!!!!!!…………..”Rui’s crying

It’s a half hour since that moment……………and two of them didn’t speak each other………..just silence….in Takumi’s room………….like no one there…….

Rui try to sit and buttoning his shirt and zipping his pants,even he’s still shocked because of ‘that’.

“Ne,Takumi-san…………………”Rui  start to speaking…breaking the silence

Takumi replied surprisingly,”Ye…..Yeah………..”without come close to Ruito like usual,and choose to sitting in the floor.

“mmmm……………….”

“?”

“Why you did that?”

“?!”

“Why………you did that?”Rui start to crying.

Takumi surprised,and hug Rui,”Rui,I’m sorry…..really……sorry………..”

Rui not speaking,just crying.

“why…you..did that?Takumi-san?what’s the reason?”saids rui,stil crying

“I’m really sorry,Rui……I’m understand,if you hate me……or angry to me.”

“No!I’m not angry…or hating you………..but,why me?”

“what do you mean?”

“You really want to do it with me?or just want to do it?”

“………of course….I want to be with you…………..is something wrong with you Rui?”

“I……………I’m stil not ready….”Rui sobbed,”And……….I’m afraid……..”

“Afraid of what?”Takumi look confused,and cupped Rui’s face

Rui erase his tears with his hands,”I’m afraid……..you’re not really love me,you just playing with me,just make me as a toy…..because……..I’m a child”Rui sobbed

Takumi hugged Rui tightly,”I’m sorry,Rui,I’m sorry.”

Rui doesn’t reply

“I’m really sorry….I……I never thought you are thinking about that.”and let go of Rui

Rui stop crying slowly………..”Takumi-san…..”

“Yes?”Takumi try to smile,because he don’t want make Rui more sad.

“No……..I mean……..Takumi-san”

“You don’t need to use ‘san’…you can call me like that was.”

“Taku…..mi?”

“Yeah…”Takumi smile.

“But….you are older than me………it don’t sound good.”

“It’s allright.”Takumi smile

“But,what’d everyone do if they hear I just call you ‘Takumi’,without ‘san’”

“It’s allright……..since you are my Lover,It’s allright…”

Rui blushing”Lover?eh…..but……..”

“Yeah…just call me Takumi”

“But………”

“Okay,if you don’t want,You can call me Takumi-san….if everyone with we,but…..”

“But?”

“But,if it is just two of we,call me Takumi,without ‘san’……”

“okay………Takumi”Rui smile……….really cute smile,for Takumi.

“Ne,Takumi.”

“You really want to do it with me?”

Takumi nodded,”but,since you said you still not ready,it’s allright…”

“Not  with kotani-san?”

“Yeah…of course…”

“Not with Aiba-san?”

“yeah….absolutely.”

“Really?”

“Yeah….”

“Just me?”

“Yeah……..Just you one,Aoyagi Ruito,RuiRui……”

“Let me sleep over tonight!!!”Rui saids,surprsing Takumi.

“Eh?”

“Yeah,I want to sleep over tonight,can I?”

“yeah…of course….but,why?”

“because,I want to know more about Saitou Takumi,about Takumi-san,about Takumi,about My lover……….”Rui smile.

“More?”

“Yeah…but…If I can……everything……….”Rui smile.

-to be continued-